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Here we go… July 5, 2011

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4th of July 2011…and it’s off. I’ve got about 5 months worth of time (including planned or non-planned interruptions), seems to be quite enough. The first day or the first time always seem to be the hardest, and although it was hard, it didn’t feel so much like it.

I won’t say what this is about, so you are free to guess πŸ™‚ Of course, there might be only one thing I’m trying to achieve, there might be more, actually, I’m actively trying to achieve two, additionally considering a third, and, hmmm, who knows, maybe I’ll find something else along this road πŸ™‚ Hell, you are even free to suggest sh*t, I might consider it, who knows. Anyway, if I’m going for it I’ll let you know, rest assured.

Go me! πŸ™‚

you were right, Matey ! March 15, 2011

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Abso-f*cking-lutely right !

It took me about 2 years (more or less) to understand what you meant, and now that I can’t ping you anymore on the internal IM, nor received any answer to my e-mails (chillax, that’s ok, I got used to rejections and/or silence), I’m writing this post hoping that at least you will read it and see that the once stubborn guy who refused or plainly demolished your words, now acknowledges and even adopts them. πŸ™‚

That heart thingie, you hardened it near…what?…26-30 years old? What did I reply? “Never!” if I recall correctly. Well, I think I just suddenly might have changed my opinion, a bit late, but better late than never… I’m still a bit afraid that although while shouting it out loud in here, I might still have difficulties in actually doing this. But no, this time I will really try my damn best. And I’m damn good at being stubborn !

I will still try one more time, before proceeding with it (and you may already say “f*ck, the idiot didn’t even finish writing and is already softening…”). But I swear that this time is the very last one.

You were right, Matey! What’s the point in suffering? None. What for? Bah, we all know. What’s the point in skyrocketing happiness one day and the next day, in spite of all the sun and warmth and joy that the spring usually brings, fall in some kind of sadness mixed with uncertainty? None. What’s the point in trying and trying and trying and trying your best to make yourself clear in a gentle manner and encounter a wall of carefully studied cluelessness? None. What’s the point in having your head filled with scenarios and “what if’s ?” instead of concentrating on the matters at hand? None.

Then why am I doing these ?! I don’t know, I’m a fool. No wonder I even kept in WOW the “Love Fool” character title ever since I got it. I don’t know what to think anymore. It’s been a couple of
months and sometimes everything took such a fortunate turn, only to crumble against that darned wall the next day or days. And then X or Y might drop by and leave an acid comment, something like “uuu, this ain’t an appropriate way of suggesting things or expressing feelings”. You, X or Y, tell me how, then ! I hear ?! Oh, you have no clue. Thanks for everythanks.

You know Matey, there’s quite a sad song from a Romanian rap act. I might even be so kind and translate the lyrics sometimes for you, if you show interest, but as I know you, you’re a pragmatic guy, as I should be. There’s a verse, which says

“Prin viata asta doar o data treci, deci pe unde mergi profita pana pleci”.

And this means

“You only pass one time through this life, so wherever you walk, take advantage of everything.”

And that’s what I’m planning to do. Of course, after this last try.

Thanks, Matey ! πŸ™‚

Happy New Year January 16, 2011

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Happy New Year, everyone πŸ™‚

Here we are, 2011 is upon us, no, the world did not end yet, nor something catastrophic at a global scale happened, so I guess we’re good and can move on with our lives πŸ™‚

So, I hope this year will bring you the fulfillment of all your wishes, or at leastΒ  of a few…important ones, let’s say. You know how they say, make a wish on New Year’s Day. at 00:00. Well, I did, so I hope you too – let those come true at least.

You also probably noticed that this post is maybe already too full of “blabla” in the beginning to make it a “deep” one, like those preceding it, and, guess what, it’s true ! I just wanted to say hi to my huge πŸ™‚ reader base for the first time in 2011Β  (ok, I’m a bit late)Β  and maybe also (p)review some blog changes or guidelines for this year, and here we go…

  • You might have probably noticed that the post below is all “cut” to say so. That doesn’t mean that I deny writing or feeling like writing that at the time, but that I most probably don’t give a shit about what or who I wrote (hi there !) and therefore it’s not important to me anymore. I may do this to any post at any given time, if I feel that it no longer reflects my opinion or whatever, so you are warned. I will not delete such posts, because then I might be accused of hypocrisy and whatnot πŸ™‚
  • Yes, I will still have posts appear every now and then, I did not create this blog to have it filled on a regular basis, but to write when I feel like (usually when I experience something meaningful to me or when I want to share something I really like).
  • I don’t know if I will change the layout, I like it as it is – simple.

Well, these being said, I hope that you will still enjoy reading it, and please, let me know what do you think of it…either by commenting sh*t around, or by talking to me face off or through IM πŸ™‚

I’m completely lost… December 5, 2010

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Well, if you reached the blog by clicking the link in my Y! messenger status, the title is somehow easy to understand – a simple translation…but to understand this and the reasons that made me write this as soon as I got back home from a mountain trip with my friends requires a bit of explaining…

Oh, it’s so hard to find the right words to start this, but here we go…I never thought that one could be so understanding and open towards someone that, to name it mildly, was mean to them…and not once. It might be that…but, well, no, that’s the first time I had it happen to me. And in this story, I’m the villain, yes…

So, I’ve mocked you a long time ago, right here on this blog, had some mean fun of you publicly, and now what, you somehow ask me out, sadly point out to me that I was lacking common sense a bit, but then again become the person I know – friendly, funny, loving, if I may add. I didn’t even have the words to explain nor excuse myself for that, because, apparently, either I couldn’t or there were no such words. For that, I am completely lost…can’t understand sh*t…or, better put, I don’t know what to think out of it ?! Did you really mean this? Did you do this to have me feel the way I should have felt and then have your sweet lil’ revenge ? (actually I didn’t wanted to ask this question, but it’ll only haunt me more if I don’t do it, so forgive me)

You know, if I’d be to offer some explaining, all this was somehow based on previous experiences of us, and well, I reckon that you’ve changed a lot – in a good way. And yes, all this time, I’ve always kept a certain feeling in there, repressed.

Maybe I should have told you all this yesterday, but you saw me πŸ™‚ and, even if they say that being drunk makes you speak freely, I still couldn’t do it. Plus my lower lip hurts a bit, if I may come up with this excuse πŸ™‚ So, I’m lost and I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for what I’ve said 2 years ago.

I’m sorry for what I said 1 month ago.

I’m sorry for somehow ignoring you.

I’m sorry (ok, not very sorry) about being drunk to the bone last night, I reckon I should have spent more time with you πŸ™‚

And yes, I still **** ***.

Ok, I know, the above line will cause a little stir among our friends, not that they wouldn’t expect me to say it, because some might know (especially someone that has been threatened to tell me that you’ll crack my skull πŸ™‚ ), but they wouldn’t expect me to say it this way.

And, to end this, tell me, should I still be lost or is there a chances an answer to it? πŸ™‚

world champions you say ?! July 14, 2010

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So, the raspberries won the World Cup…

I’ll let the following video speak for itself – I’m too disgusted to post it here, click the following link and you’ll see what I mean.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMhmXBuUkzs

As a comment on youtube pointed out, this is an accurate representation of the spanish football…and people were crying out loud against Cristiano Ronaldo’s spit on camera. True, but you know what the problem is ? That guy had the balls to do it in the open, this homeless lowlife does it behind and then laughs with the primates surrounding him…

Danke ! July 12, 2010

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Nichts zu sagen – einfach eine Photo und ein Video.

Danke, Junge, wir sind stolz auf Ihr ! πŸ™‚

opportunities May 16, 2010

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Well,

I won’t say “hi, long time no see”, nor use other clicheΓ©s in here because this post is the second in line, so it wasn’t meant to be the “comeback” one. That’s something I was planning to write for some time now, as the idea clearly took form in my mind, and it’s something I think you will find both true and useful in the same time…

So…opportunities, what are they ? They’re chances, offerings, proposals, name it how you want – anyway, opportunities are situations where you find yourself to be the center of attention, where, let’s say so, “the world is yours”, regardless if professionally or on other domains (life, etc). An opportunity never comes alone, keep that in mind, just when you think nothing else can happen (good or bad), woop !, there it is, one opportunity, two, even three… And here you are, alone, faced by them. The second golden rule (if we take into account the phrase just before) is to NEVER get (too) excited. Why? Because you’ll be very disappointed if it fails to become true. The third rule? Easy as pie – never give too much attention to one. Let them all exist, carefully think about each and choose if you feel like. Or, to put it plain, just wait. Wait, don’t do nothing, and see what’s going to happen.

Now you’ll ask – where from so much wisdom ? Simple. Out of experience. In the last month I’ve been faced with…say twice this problem, both professionally and in my personal life. Wouldn’t be the first time I am being presented opportunities. What happened – first time everything crumbled to thin air. But, fortunately, I’m already immune to it πŸ™‚ Second one – well that was fast – the fastest I ever had. Couldn’t even realize what happens. Ended some…what? 15 minutes ago? πŸ™‚ It literally filled the glass, thus you’re reading these lines.

“So, that was it?” you may ask. Nope, opportunities are always there. If you want, you can provoke them, you can search for ’em, or you can just lay low and wait for them to happen. Just try to ignore if it fails, walk on. That’s what I’m doing, at least. Waiting, and waiting. Sometimes I have these words coming in my mind – “good things happen to those who wait”. It’s not always applicable, but I tend to agree with this to an extent.

Happy waiting πŸ™‚

vara asta este (inca) ZU :)) August 24, 2009

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ok, here I am…after a looong long time… full of ideas and experiences to share πŸ™‚ …but, if you happen to be one of those many (lol) readers of my blog and see this unfinished draft, just don’t panic ! I went out for a beer and will finish it later on !

oh, and you can google the post’s title if you can’t wait for me to explain πŸ™‚

–and now, the much-expected story– πŸ˜€

As I promised, I will explain what the title of this post means…in a mot-a-mot translation, that would be “this summer is ZU” – nothing special, right? Of course, I will take the freedom to explain what ZU is, or at least, what do I understand off it in the given context, at the end of this entry, so please bear with me, I hope the story will be interesting enough to keep you reading.

Well, well, what do we have? Summer. What is summer supposed to be? If you ask me, first of all, a lot of fun together with friends, sea, sun, music, white nights…Second, it’s not supposed to be a time for solitude. Yup, solitude, that’s right. Well, yeah, you might argue that I’m too philosophical or that’s plain bull$hit, but that’s the way I see it. Somehow it’s hard and easy to be surrounded by friends (joy, etc) but alone in the same time (I hope you see what I mean by alone). Easy because your friends help you get over it, and hard because it’s still disturbing, even if you’re drunk as hell, or breaking the dance floors in clubs, or ride the pipes of a water fun park.

So…what to do? This I asked myself too. The solution would be to help yourself, as no one can help you better. So I tried.Β  For 3 months. And I’m still trying.

I’ve had my fair share of experiences. So, what did I learn?

1.Β  Don’t hurry up. Especially if you’re judgment is blinded, concentrate, take a moment, think at what you’re doing and if it’s the right thing to do, what the outcome will be. Sounds hard, and it is, but you have to try it until you can do it. Just think, a mere 5 minutes of brain may save you later days of sorry thoughts that you went head on into the fray.

2. Try to think out of the box. Don’t choose something you know because it’s comfortable. Plus, it might not work at all. Explore, get to know people.

3. I don’t know how God made man, but woman…definitely He can’t tell Himself !:)Β  So, what to do here? Nothing. No, rly, nothing. πŸ™‚

You can’t do sh*t about this aspect. Ah, actually you can. Bear with her. That’s it. And in the mean time, forget that something good might happen. Don’t think of the worst either. Like this, the end will find you either happy or shrugging your shoulders and going forward.

That’s what I’ve learned out of this summer, and I guess you will agree with me that things you learn come out of experience.

“So…what’s this idiot rambling about ZU, I see no ZU ’round here ?!”

Well, “ZU” is crazy, if you ask me, full of life, animated, alive. And even if we’re approaching the 1st of September, this summer will be ZU ’till its very end ! πŸ™‚

Also, if you live as well a summer like this one, my advice to you is to also get something out of it, be it experience or ❀ stuff πŸ™‚

those who haven’t got… September 10, 2008

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…elders, should get them. I made up this translation, might as well exist in the English phraseology, I don’t know and I had no time or lust to search for it.

What does it mean? Being somehow of a forced (mot-a-mot) translation from Romanian, some of you may actually understand it. As for the others, I’ll try and explain. Each and every one of us has or had his own elder relatives – be it grandparents, uncles, aunts, great-grandparents, etc. I for one fall now in the second category. It might be that you just got to know them or have grown up with them. Again, second group for me. There were so many moments when I was mad, or not fully pleased with their judgments, oppinions or decisions. But recalling and analysing all of these moments, now, in this particular night, when my beloved grandpa passed away, I realise that their goal was to guide us through life, one in which we were “newcomers”, even when we were 16,17 or older. They just meant good things to happen to us and wanted to see us thrive and live a life which they couldn’t have, due, maybe, to the living conditions which existed in their time. They worked so that we may live a better life, and, as I saw with many occasions, grandparents grow to become more attached to their nephew(s) than to their own children.

“The bottom line ?” you may ask. Quite simple: I have never realised how much I will miss those (as I was younger) apparently pesky advices, coming from my grandparents. Apart from their absence, I do miss now their love, their attention, their understanding and kindness in situations in which parents would have lost nerve. And I will never get them back. That’s why I advise those of you who still have grandparents to bear with them, to understand, love and respect them. To lose them is one of the life’s great losses. And they can’t be replaced (“…should get them”).

thank you, Dr. Bashir! June 22, 2008

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I know what I’m going to write about…but I don’t know how I’m supposed to start…anyway, not in the same manner with the TNG post, for sure. Actually this little divagation already makes a difference between the two of them.

If you recall, the immediately following series that I’ve mentioned there was Deep Space 9. Well, during TNG, I thought they are out of social aspects that could fit in the franchise, but I got very, very…wrong πŸ™‚ . Efforts of the Federation to rebuild a war-torn Bajor, left in ruins and despair after a long and painful cardassian ocupation, were the perfect curtain for the producers, which put in lots of situations taken from real life: the famine, the victims of the occupation, the orphans, the death toll, the efforts of the Bajoran people to reconstruct their homeworld. UFP has its own share of problems – constant pressure from the Cardassians which were in the position to force the negotiations for peace, the constant pressure from the Maquis, the rebels which were willing to do something for the people on the Federation homeworlds left inside of cardassian space, Bajoran government which, even weak, held a firm position in the negotiations.

And then, amidst all these intrigues, plots and pressure, Cmdr. Sisko comes in. A young Starfleet commander, with a team of young officers, thrown in the most remote outpost of the Federation, an abandoned Cardassian ore-processing facility, a buffer between all these. Sisko, Dr. Julian Bashir, science officer Jadzia Dax (a joined Trill), Chief O’Brien, and later on, Cmdr. Worf meet Col. Kira Nerys, appointed Bajoran liaison officer on DS9, constable Odo (a shapeshifter), Quark, the devious but good-hearted (even if he won’t admit it) Ferengi barkeeper. Initially, I didn’t intend to watch DS9 due to the “static” format I thought it would display – and, indeed, Cpt. Sisko is the builder type, he has devoted himself to the well-being of Bajoran people – and being used to all the action in TNG. Oh, but, by all means πŸ™‚ , believe me, I’ve had more than my fair share of action. The producers managed to transform the apparently boring life on a station in the attraction of the series. Quark’s smuggling, cheating the customers which were gambling, conflicts with his various business partners and employees, Odo’s constant eye on him, Jake and Nog’s childish follies, the simply Bajorans residing there, regularly attending temple services, the life on the Promenade, all these create a sense of familiarity and each and every action takes bigger proportions in the viewer’s eyes. And when the Defiant comes in, along with the numerous assignments in single missions as well as commanding the allied Federation-Klingon-Romulan forces against the Dominion, action just jumps off the scale. And, of course, the ever-turning tides of the war against the Dominion provide a thrill that keeps you connected to the show, waiting for more.

Why thanking a fictious character? Read more about Dr. Bashir at the Memory Alpha Wiki. And if you still can’t see why I’m thanking him, watch the series. And if you still don’t understand, ask me πŸ™‚

Thank you, Dr. Bashir!